I think i've really changed
i really really dont like or wished to talk to anybody
Dont even want to hang out
and i think my temper is really getting out of hand already
really can't control anymore
but luckly managed to
I left as soon as i felt that i was really angry over something
You think i dont know, but i actually i do
I am afraid that if i don't leave
it will become an ugly sence? hahax
In class, i used my mp4 to avoid talking to my friends
or listening to them
Not that i dont wish to listen to them
I dont want to listen is because i am afraid i will
make rude comments or something..
I want to talk
but i always find that whatever i say
will always offend someone..
As long as i had my mp4 with me
i am in my own world
I don't have to talk,
don't have to feel angry,
sad etc etc
I also want to apologise to you guys
cause whenever i am angry
i talk to you guys with a very irritated tone
when its not you guys fault.
club4paws, *i almost everyday also feel like going
but then something will bound to happen*
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAX!!!
Whenever i am in club4paws, i will always try to
avoid crowded places.
I will always walk away hahax
Not that i dont like them
Its just that i .. dont know how to explain
I guess i am anti-social
Today went home super early
From the starting i should not have enter at all
Then nothing would have happend
I should have left when it wasn't raining.
It was raining super heavly, but i really cannot tahan anymore
so just took my things and left,
actually i wanted to find a way to leave
so that no one can see me.
So that i dont have to say bye
hahax but cant find a way too..
Then just walk under the rain @ the park connector
No one was walking there
Only me and my box with the cold wind and heavy rain
Super cold,
At that moment i told myself that
I will never ever make friends or talk anymore
Whenever there are people around i will just walk away
I told myself that
Was super angry about something
But can't say it out
At that moment i was thinking
why i am i so stupid? Why did i have to make friends?
Do i deserve them? No i seriously dont
Super duper fucked up.