Everytime i beat Mango
I can feel that she's in pain
But then its for her own good
I don't want her be like rover
hahax! My heart also very pain
Everytime got to be an evil person
After i locked her up, she will give me
Those innocent eyes, or not is those
Eyes like, why are you locking me up its not even my fault
Stupid eyes of her's haiix
hahax!
NOW i'm still @ the first page of my prep work only..



I'm going to do an impossible task to me larrs
hahax That is....
To complete my Art prep work by today!



Once i'm back home, seeing Ranny & Mango
Everything seems to be alright.
Love them always!







After solving one problem
Another pops out, but i am proud of myself
that at least infrontation time i did not use any vulgar words! Woottzz!!
Just that tomorrow got to see Sng again,
What the hell, already apologised what else you want sia
Parker also can't hear properly then for what apologize to you?
Since your hearing got problem hahaahhaahahahahahx!!!!
Today super super angry
THOUGH in Club4paws,
many thought i was angry, my face was super black & super obvious
But then i seriously was not angry! hahax
I was only playing nia, can ask Shirley hahax!!!
Its a super stupid joke.
Shirley ah,
Anything you can always say out de alrights?
Don't have to keep everything to yourself okays?!
Your class is only one class away from mine, anything can always
Give me a Call or Msg to ask me out
I will always be there for you if you want me too ;D
CHEER UP EVERYBODY!!!
I don't know why, today quite alot of people ain't in the mood.
Haiix.. Though i'm also not in the mood
BUT
In order for my friends to SMILE
I got to show a good example hahax!!
And make them LAUGH!! :D
CHEER UP ALRIGHTS?!!!!!!
A new day, A new hope
Hopefully for me....



Today super duper ANGRY DAY!
Though, i hardly even stepped out of my house
But still super duper angry de larrs
You don't know how angry i was
I even shut my phone down
but later had to on it back due to the puppy
I really really really really REALLY REALLY!!!
HATE to make friends lorx
If this is the result of being alone,
A lonner.
I accept IT!
At least when i am alone, i dont have to be angry or whatever
but if when i am with others, i will get irritated with
their character larrs.
Though i know i am not perfect,
but i am better off alone.
Because whenever i am with others there will always bound to have
something happening.
But mostly its always me, who gets angry the most.
Because i got serious issues..
Not that you guys did anything wrong or what
Its just me lorx
I dont think i can mix well
Or what..
I think i am seriously crazy
I DONT KNOW WHAT THE HELL I WANT
OR WANT TO DO
OR FEEL LIKE SAYING OR WHATEVER SHIT LARRS
You know this feeling is so damm FUCKED up?!
I AM always feeling so damnn FUCKED UP!
And its not you guys fault
Its because i always find myself such a SUCKER
haiix...
I seriously dont know what to do with myself
Feel like locking myself up & go CRAZY HAHAX!!
ihda'shdkalshfklsdhfklsahdfklshf'lshdfsldkhfsidfh
Sucks sucks sucks
My life will always sucks

Sorry if i made you guys so pissed off
I know sorry no cure, i will isolate myself
I think i am a MAD dog on a loose chain HAHAX!



Today whole day i've been doing the lantern!
Super ugly hahax
At night wen li came & helped
Then went to accompany her to eat her dinner,
we went back to club4paws for awhile
then later went to feed the stray dogs
We bought backed a puppy
Jack russel cross? I dont know but now its on my lap
hahax!!!
Super cute,
Me & Wen li helped bathed it, sprayed it with flea stuff
And last but not least clean its ears
hahax!
Though its super super dirty
but after cleaning its so damnn cute
But sadly i dont think i can keep it
Till her next owner's, i will love her and take good care of her de
hahax!
Then i found out how bad i have been to rover..
& Ranny sorry today can't let you sleep in my room
Cause i scared if this puppy has fleas and stuff it may pass it to you
Woottzz today i am not going to sleep man!



hey hey !
I am waiting for my heater to heat up
so that i can bathe WARM water & not COLD!
hahax i know i know its very late already, but i reached home
like around 12.30+? hahax
Then talked on the phone & played games for awhile
then went to on the heater..
Okays!
Today early morning went for breakfast with
Mummy & Daddy
After that headed down to Popo's house
to help out with the renovations.
You know i was asked to do a job that i had to risk my life?! hahax!
I was asked to clean the carboards, take everything out
And look through see those things that are old and obviously
not use-a-ble, throw it away.
My Popo is like those that will keep everything,
and does not allow anyone to throw her things.
If she finds out that its you who threw her things she would
scold you and ask you not to come down again?!
Except for my Aunt who has the rights to do so..
Then as i cleared the curboards i had to keep an eye for my Popo
Seriously, like i was doing something wrong.. hahax!
She came in without me knowing and i was shocked!
Then i faster pretended to clean something and i slowly move away
i was calling for my mother hahax! but in the end nothing
Although she went to check the rubbish bin if threw her things away.
Popo so cute larrs, she knew that we would throw away her things..
Then she went to open the rubbish and checked hahax!
Then i was telling my mother & aunties that
nvm larrs if she found out that we are throwing away her things
She can scold me bahhs
Anyways i won't understand whatever she's talking
Cause she speaks Cantonese, which i am able to understand abit nia hahax!
After doing everything, we went to YAM CHA for our dinner
Had steamboat! WOOOTZZ!! The steamboat is so damnn style!
Took a photo of it but can't upload it here, next time bahhs
hahax
After eating i head down to club4paws, by then it was already 8++ hahax! Sorry!

Tomorrow got to wake up early,
study maths at least
then do lantern, accompany shirley & head home again.
If i managed to do finish my stuff maybe i can go down to club4paws again.
But if its very late like today i maybe not going le
hahax later give people say again HAHAX!

SMILE SMILE SMILE SMILE SMILE SMILE SMILE!!!
YANG WEN LI!!!
SMILE SMILE SMILE SMILE SMILE!!!!:D:D :D :D



Backed from club4paws!
Went there in the late afternoon
hahax not much things left to do
but after that
in the night brought the dogs for a swim
OH! and super unlucky
I stepped on a pile of wet & soggy SHIT!
Super disgusting!
But after wash already then its alright bahhs
hahax today quite funny Thanks to that Drama-tic person
hahax!!! but okays larrs, his drama still can accept
not those really drama person
hahax dont know how say larrs,
Overall for today was alrights just that
Lucas! That puppy made me run like an idoit infront
of people! Though its only 5 people like that but still
its damnn pai seh larrs, they laughing somemore
After that when shirley managed to get hold of him
i made sure he wasn't gonna run away again
because he thought i was playing with him
once i get near him he ran away
then he came back again but just as i was about to catch him
he ran....
dot dot dot dot dot dot dot
made me so idoit..
hahax but after that okays larrs heng its @ night not much people
or not i confirm xia suay club4paws de
Left there @ 10++ because i cannot tahan anymore
I got stomach upset + that Minen keep on making us laugh
untill i almost cried hahax
So left there wanted to go eat mac de
but my stomach super pain can't eat
so Shirley, Wen li went home.
But I accompany wenli to s-11 for her late dinner
hahax!
I only managed to study First Chapter of Maths..
Haiix in the end i got distracted my ONLINE GAMES!!!
disappointed in myself, for not being able to concentrate!!!
Damnn JuChan..
HAHAX!

* As long as you keep smiling, everything will be fine,
though maybe at the start its not but, if you don't lose your smile
things will be easiyer for you * :D
Its easy to say, but its difficult to do & remember once i'm angry
hahax!








Though i said before that
As long as you smile, everything will be fine.
Its true, but its hard.
I always say that to others, but always forgot to use on myself.
Thats why things goes out of hands..
I seriously just sucks.



I think i've really changed
i really really dont like or wished to talk to anybody
Dont even want to hang out
and i think my temper is really getting out of hand already
really can't control anymore
but luckly managed to
I left as soon as i felt that i was really angry over something
You think i dont know, but i actually i do
I am afraid that if i don't leave
it will become an ugly sence? hahax
In class, i used my mp4 to avoid talking to my friends
or listening to them
Not that i dont wish to listen to them
I dont want to listen is because i am afraid i will
make rude comments or something..
I want to talk
but i always find that whatever i say
will always offend someone..
As long as i had my mp4 with me
i am in my own world
I don't have to talk,
don't have to feel angry,
sad etc etc
I also want to apologise to you guys
cause whenever i am angry
i talk to you guys with a very irritated tone
when its not you guys fault.
club4paws, *i almost everyday also feel like going
but then something will bound to happen*
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAX!!!
Whenever i am in club4paws, i will always try to
avoid crowded places.
I will always walk away hahax
Not that i dont like them
Its just that i .. dont know how to explain
I guess i am anti-social
Today went home super early
From the starting i should not have enter at all
Then nothing would have happend
I should have left when it wasn't raining.
It was raining super heavly, but i really cannot tahan anymore
so just took my things and left,
actually i wanted to find a way to leave
so that no one can see me.
So that i dont have to say bye
hahax but cant find a way too..
Then just walk under the rain @ the park connector
No one was walking there
Only me and my box with the cold wind and heavy rain
Super cold,
At that moment i told myself that
I will never ever make friends or talk anymore
Whenever there are people around i will just walk away
I told myself that
Was super angry about something
But can't say it out
At that moment i was thinking
why i am i so stupid? Why did i have to make friends?
Do i deserve them? No i seriously dont
Super duper fucked up.



Somethings will just never seems to changed
No matter how much i tried to do something
the result will always be the same.
Just now in the afternoon
Someone told me a phrase,
A man's best friend is actually a mirror reflection of himself ;D
I think thats the right phrase hahax
i have no idea why
or what happend?
Now a days i don't seems to liked hanging out or even talking to anyone
I'm not trying to say that my friends aren't good or whatever..
Its just me,
I dont feel like going into crowded places, making friends,
laughing off or just hang out or talk to anyone.
Just me alone in my own world which
no one will care about.
I have this feeling that,
once i take a step out of my world, i will cause great disasters
and unhappiness.
So its best i just stay here.
As long as i have my Mp4 i guess i'm alright.
hahax!
Seriously i have alot to say,
but sadly i do not have anyone to tell too..
But its alright i shall learn to be independent,
anyways i am just a waste on this planet ;D



Woke up @ 6am
Just to help Shirley Ang print her things..
If not i will be waking up @ 6.30am
I don't think i have enough time to
Squeeze Orange Juice for lessons later already
Just finished printing.
I think after school, i will be heading to Club4paws & i will be leaving @ 5pm
I seriously need to start studying,
in order to archieve my goal and do my parents proud! Hahax!
I've got lots & tones of homework to do
Just that i haven started doing
Hohohohohohohoho
Got to think of a way to delay time
So that when i get home today,
i will complete everything,
hopefully i will leave club4paws @5pm! :D
I want to score well, so that i don't have to worry
about the holidays & i'm allowed to go there as and when i like hahax!!!!
IF i don't then i can say bye bye to my favourites HAHAX!! ^^
Jia You Jia You EVERYBODY!!!!



Today i had a MANGOFUNTASTICAL DAY!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHX!!!!!
For dinner i had,
Mango shaved ICe-cream
Mango Juice
&
&
&
MANGO FRUIT!!!
WOOHOO!!!
I so so so so so so LOVE MANGO MAN!
Next time i will
Create MANGO DISHES HAHAX!!!
Super cool man!!!
I gtg le to squeeze ORANGE JUICE for tomorrow! :D
What an healthy style YEAH!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAX!!!



Stupid shower..
Once again...
Today super fed up with something
But can't say anything cause
that is not my place.
So i've got to bear with it
thats the life.
BUT
After awhile managed to let it go..
Carried on laughing because of
my stupid mistakes hahax
super pai seh..
Today just isn't my day
EVERYDAY is NOT my day!
I don't know when will THAT perfect day come,
i dont think i will ever have a perfect day hahax!
HURRY i wanna die @ the age of 18!
I don't know whats wrong with me....
I feel like wacking people or scolding them sia HAHAX!
&
I WILL NEVER CHEAT OR STEAL ANYONE'S MONEY
FOR YO INFORMATION ALRIGHT!
Hao xing mei hao bao! Idoit!

Popo's birthday!

i know i look super ugly but its alrights hahax!!

Super angry!!!
With my irritating heater!!!
I came back sweaty & dirty
just wanna have a good bathe and then use my computer
BUT WHO KNOWS!!! I have to wait
30 hours just to SHOWER COLD WATER..
so irritating...
But nvm larrs at least i'm clean hahahax!!!
Today went to take a look @ the puppies!
Long long long long story story ~~~~
Overall for today is fun! Tired & sweaty plus dirty hahax!!!
Club4paws is the best man!
Just that i dont like some of the people there from my school
who thinks they are the boss of us.
Think twice ah..
We only listen to the people there not you shit ass..
hahahahax!!

Sianx... tomorrow got remedial what to do..
I can't get my focus to focus on what i want...
You know i really can't understand some people's words.
& cant hear also.
I think i seriously have hearing problems & understanding things.
I 'm dying soon HAHAHAX!!!



First day of 1 week holidays
yet i have not started studying yet!
Saturday went for my popo's birthday party
then looked around @ my cousins
really admire them alot alot alot because
they seems to be the perfect daughters that
every mother would wish to have.
I guess if i was compared to them, i would confirm
lose 100% or more.
They don't seem to let their parents down,
no matter what suitation they are in
they never fail to do their parents proud
by their studies and everything.
I've got lots to learn,
even from my very own elder sister.
She did so well & managed to get a scholarship
because of her hard worked & everything
our family then managed to overcome many problems
Without her, i think we would have to downgrade our flat
& everyday will become a problem to us.
So really want to thank her alot!
Previously i didn't really liked her and ever wished and asked
why did i have such a sister like her.
but today i wanna thank god for giving me such
a great sister like her!
I want to follow her footsteps to be able to provide
incomes for my family so that everybody wont have to live
our previous life anymore.
Yepx! But hahax, everything that i've said are just words.
I dont know if i can put them into actions.
But i will try!
I don't want to be the only disappointment in my whole family :D
Seriously, i will try & forget all those un-nessary problems
because they are not worth for my attention,
especially to you.
If you want to think or do that way then go ahead,
if you want to hate me then so be it
cause i won't give a damnn anymore.
;D
Just want to say thanks & sorry for everything.
Woo hooo..
Super fun, but no pain no game
GOT TO START STUDYING!!!!!!
HAiix...
hahax!!!!
JIA YOU JIA YOU EVERYBODY!!!



Today was quite fun & tiring hahax
Super pai seh man..
But then saw some heartless people & qian da ren HAHAX!!!
how good if tomorrow was still a holiday
haiix..