When i am 18 years old, the year which i will die.
I would to say this to my family members & friends.

When I'm tired
I keep trying hard to stay awake as usual
I keep thinking of you as usual too
I'm really scared that when my mind is at rest and
I'm asleep
In my dreams my heartbeat won't listen to me
And just stop

Listen;
The sound of breathing like waves splashing
The more beautiful it gets, the more
I feel uneasy
What can I still cherish
If I can barely control my own pulse?

If I became a memory - withdrew from this life
Leaving you startled and weeping
My ice-cold body
No longer able to embrace you
Thinking that I'll leave you,
the one I love To travel among the sea of people alone
I will hate myself
For being so heartless

If I became a memory - finally not so lucky
No chance
Of us tottering while holding your hand
Hair grown white
Watching the sunset
In this very long period of time
There'll be a day
When your broken heart will heal
If someone can [heal your wound]
Let him stay accompany you
I won't blame you

Happiness
When will it end?
When is the very end?
I really want to embrace you tightly
Know that you're the one in my life
I can't bear to leave the most

If I became a memory - withdrew from this life
Leaving you startled and weeping,
my ice-cold body no longer able to embrace you
Thinking that I'll leave you,
the one I love
To travel among the sea of people alone
I will hate myself
For being so heartless

If I became a memory - finally not so lucky
No chance to
Tottering while holding your hand
Hair grown white
Watching the sunset
In this very long period of time
There'll be a day
When your broken heart will heal
If someone can [heal your wound],
let him stay accompany you,
I won't blame you

If I became a memory - I'm most afraid that
I'll let myself down
Stubbornly lingering in the air
Dominating your heart
Every part of it
Making the you that still loves me,
suffer painfully for this loss
This isn't fair
Please try your best
To forget me

hahax thats actually a lyrics of a song..
but its true that when i reached 18 & i passed away
that will roughly be what i want to say to everyone
whom i know :D